oh yeah, whatever this

yeah hello i'm here
sorry for late post, still busy for something --'

i just inspired with someone, who post something bout my near friend.
until now still near friend, yeah, honestly i dunno what i feel bout he, and i never care bout it
i just do it everyday, never thought maybe it'll hurt me someday..
yeah,. maybe i just not new with "heart broken"

i just want to share bout him :) yeah, he give me an inspiration :)

at first time i met him, at an event at my school, he sat near me, and i don't know who him
suddenly he show off his hand and ask my name, surely i' confuse with this boy
"huh ? is he okay ?" but yeah, i take his hand and tell my name, and i ask his name too..
at that time i know, if he near with my friend, and not in a relationship
one thing i know bout him from that's incident : he is confident boy !

after our introduction not once we greeting each other,,
just hi, or what..
until i know some bad information bout him..
yeah, actually he hurt my friend's heart,
short story, he leave my friend for another girl,
and unfortunately my firend,hv a feel with him..
yeah, and i hear another bad story bout him..
from many friend, until know him or just know his name or his face..
yeah, i'm often met him, still greet him, yeah just as friend school

after i know he left my friend, i know he have a near relation with a girl,
and again, not a relationship. i think how crazy this boy ?!
wanna hurt another heart again huh ? 
honestly i hate his character..
yeah, because i ever at his position and i get a karma maybe
and finally i know how hurt get a false hope x.x
i ever though "someday, i'll hurt you!"

and after that at not unexpected time, i share with him
with easily i said to him if many people didn't act
who easily give girls false hope..
and he looks little shock with my words
and yeah, i think better you hurt with my truth words than you happy with my lie words
and few day after that, i'm forgot when, i ever hear he said to me 
"you said, many people hate me, if i near with many girl's and give them false hope,
so i try to didn't do it again"
yeah, little shock, he do my words 

after few month after that, he chat me on fb
yeah, i just reply, he ask me bout my friend..
i ask him , how bout your gf ?
he broke ? oh what ? broke ? with beautiful girl ?
crazy i think :O
and he ask me, if i have friends, playgirl.
great. i think. you are crazy !
i hate your personallity !
but, we are still contact and, more intens
and we are more near.
and i can't believe, i'm very near with him until right now
with a fake boy ?!

our relation began from we on the way to go to bali
for a choir competition, we sat together, he hold my hand.
and i remember something whose i want to remember it forever
yeah, my brother, that's moment made me remembered my brother
after that we often go together..
yeah, i try to trust to him, but it's very hard
i know, i havn't a feel maybe, but i know, it's very hurt
when you loose a good friend, who like you feel with your nearest friend (my brother)
honestly i still can't explain my feeling
between like and no between hate and no beetwen care and no
i know yeah, maybe he just give me false hope too like another girl.
but i dont care, i just with him and not in a relationship
i know many other girls ever getting hurt because him,
but i still with him. how stupid i'm ??!! but i can't go..
yeah, we didn't know what's happen tomorrow 
like my story, i dunno if a boy who i hate at frist time
can be my near friend right now..
and i know actually, he's a nice ppl, i like his smile, yeah
i know he not a handsome one, but he's not ugly, yeah
he's nice, look hard-heared but he's very understanding..
and i hope i we can be a good friendship forever :) 
"AVA" :)